The Just-Before-Midnight New-Year’s-Eve Post

It’s one hour from 2012. It’s probably one of the last lazy, easy-to-schedule hangings with my best friend, whom I’ve lived within 10 blocks of for 12 years now, and called a friend for 20+.

It’s unsettling, the few “bad” things about moving. I’ll miss being close to my friend. The stupid small-talk bitching sessions are sometimes among the most cathartic to share with someone. POP! There’s a bitching session! Unleash! Unwind! Let go! Move on. There. Feels better, no?

My friend whining about work has been old for a while, but all night tonight it made me smile as he put out fires with over some asshat who kicked in a window at his coffee shop that his staff didn’t know how to deal with. Tonight, I was chill and mellow as he texted and chatted away, trying to solve the impending insurance emergency.

That’s New Year’s Eve for you. The winds of change…  if any are headed your way, this is when you hear them.

Three months from now, when I want to see someone, it’ll be people I barely know who fill the gaps. Hopefully they’ll become the people I want to see.

Three months from now, when I feel like grabbing breakfast, it’ll be completely different places. In fact, nothing I do now will be the same in three months.

It’s nerve-wracking at times because I know how much I’m invested in this choice to move and be living a different lifestyle.

But when I tried to tell my friend tonight how much I’d miss him, all he would say was, “You need to do this.”

And he’s right.

It’s funny, the people who knew me best, when I said “I want to move to Victoria and work from home,” all of them said “That’d be GREAT for you.”

It was work and people who only know me on the surface who said, “I dunno. Are you sure?”

But apparently friends and family I’d leave my life with, they think I “need to do this.”

One — a father with a couple toddlers and a great wife — is taking vacation days to help me move. I’m a lucky kid.

In ways, I’ve never let more than a few people prove their loyalty to me. I’m good at putting up walls. Dad owned a construction company. It’s in the blood.

Now, it feels weird. Who’s what to me now? I’m not really sure. Here’s where I find out.

It’s a good thing I’m not moving far from home. There’s a lot to not want to leave permanently…  people included.

Meanwhile: Happy New Year.

Change is afoot… if you want it. (Apologies to John Lennon.)